Flesh Eating Monster

Before...before I died I was used to being hidden. A shadow amongst shadows with secrets I would die to protect. No one really knew of who I was or rather...what I was. And now, after death has forced me to life again, people KNOW. They know I'm a zombie, I'm undead, I'm a corpsicle, whatever. That much is blatantly obvious. But I'm not used to people knowing. It frightens me.

I saw my sisters boyfriend only yesterday, he screamed when he saw me. Muttering that it was impossible. Only I heard. Outside of the pack no one believes he is the one who murdered me. But he was there. I know it.

Even as the undead the laws of mortals still bind us. Though they don't protect us. Danny wishes to take his life. An eye for an eye, I suppose you could say. But I would rather not, why bring us into the spotlight? Why put us up for suspicion.

Though I don't wish to kill him, I want him to realize that there is no getting rid of me. Torr wants me here and I am. I have my pack to take care of. I want him to feel what I felt, not pain, not the agony I felt, but the horrible things that went on in my mind as I lay in the stages between life and undeath.

Artemis...? How are things with Apollo?

Let me know.
-Tony

Oh My My My

Well, hellooooo. It's been quite a while...about a month actually, since I've written. How horrible since I've got all this time on my hands. Goodnessssss. Anyway. Life...(hehe sorry couldn't stop myself.) Un-dead life is pretty good. Things with Danny are great, Lucian Axel came to visit, and I told my parents about my death. They were freaked...obviously. But I must say that they handle weird quite well.

When my sister told her boyfriend about me and my death....he became a little more frightened of me. GOOD.. He should be scared.

When Lucian came to visit he told me that I'm a miracle of the greatest rank in the realm of werewolves (so the council says) and Torr has been visiting me in my sleepless dreams. It's incredible. Who knew death would bring you closer to a god?

I went to Prom with Danny. It was amazinnnggg. My dress was beautiful and Danny was striking in his black tux. It was extremely funn. Hope all is well in the mortal realm??

-Tony (werewolf, alphess, and cheater of the hands of death.)

To Die or Not to Die

I was officially declared a zombie by my school...so that was relatively interesting. I went in and the nurse checked me over and they were so excited about their first undead student. I can't say I'm not surprised by the school's reaction...I thought they'd either not notice or shun me because our town is so small that change is just like the apocolypse. The pack is super supportive and with them nothing has changed. Danny has finally calmed down and he doesn't care that I'm undead since we live forever anyway. But I'm worried...about having a child. I don't think it's possible...but i'm not sure so we'll skip that topic for the moment.

Being undead is...weird. I miss sleeping...There are times where I zone in and out of active consiousness...but I haven't slept since I "died" I don't HAVE to eat but it's almost just a reaction, I'm never hungry anymore. It's amazing the time you get when you dont' have to eat or sleep. I've worked on a story...my life story...oddly enought this blog is in it. *sigh*

I'm just not sure. This is all so confusing.
It's like being bitten all over again, adjusting to a new lifestyle and I just don't know.
If any of you have any advice...please let me know.
-Tony

Death has not been cruel

Hey Everyone. Tony here. And I KNOW you guys have been freaking out about what happened. It's okay because I'm fine. Being...undead isn't so bad. I was already a werewolf might as well make me a weird werewolf (who knew that was possible?!) I'm still the same me...just without a heartbeat. It's amazing. I don't sleep now...which is really weird. I just kinda zone in and out, it's amazing all the things you miss when you're asleep!

I really appreciate you guys supporting me through all this. Z has been awesome keeping you updated, honestly I don't know how they've put up with me. You guys rock.

Being so close...to not returning...it's scary. It makes me realize that though my life has been short, I regret nothing. Everything is perfect. I have the coolest friends and my pack is my world. There's no need to worry about me anymore. I'm back and better than ever. I've really missed being able to post and talk to you guys. Danny is still a little over protective but I guess i can't really blame him.

How've you all been? Missed you tons!
-Tony.

Many many things

Hello again bloggerites. I apologize for my poor posting skills. It's a wonder that Tony still allows me to post. Speaking of Tony she's doing wonderful, almost perfectly back to health. She's walking...eating, talking, she's up for the same amount of time as everyone else. But...there's something about her that has scared us to the depths of our souls. She has no heart beat. NONE. It is absolutely silent. With no heartbeat there is no bloodflow so her skin is never warm and not really cold...it's room temperature. She can still change, which was amazing. She changed for the first time two weeks ago. It was amazing, seeing her in wolf form again. But...the heartbeat...there isn't one. She cut herself on a knife and the wound healed as fast as it would've before...but we think...we think Tony is actually a Zombie. The way we've heard descriptions of people coming back to life is precisely what tony went through. Apollo thinks she came through it faster because she is still a werewolf. It's amazing. I read both of the Generation Dead series by Daniel Waters. Tony's pretty much the same as before, no heart beat of course, and there's something in her eyes. They went from gray blue to this pale icy blue. We think she's the first zombie werewolf. We need advice. What do you guys think?
--Z

Catching up

I realize it's been a while since I've updated. Things have been very very hectic and the time just hasn't come. Tony is doing amazingly well. She started walking again last week, she's talking perfectly and she's gotten to the point of yelling at Danny for being over protective of her progress. January 16 we celebrated Tony's 16th birthday. She was awake for it. It was wonderful. Yesterday she and danny watched a movie at the house and she is doing really really well. She has yet to see her parents, she's talked to them on the phone and such but nothing person to person. Mainly because of the scars she'll always have now. There's one scar...it runs across her right cheek...the silver in the blade messed up the tissue enough to leave a scar...so there are scars all over her.

She's doing really really well though. I'm sorry I haven't been very good about posting her progress. But I hope you would understand the situation.
-Z

So much time so many posts

Hello everyone, It's Z. Again. My apologies for not being faster on posting, but reason is because things are getting crazy...again. Tony opened her eyes for the first time the middle of this week, then the next day and the next day for longer periods. She smiled today, and it was amazing to see her smile. She was awake for a whole hour. So she's coming out of it, she's rising up. Since Tony's doing better Danny still...isn't. He's the same as he was, constantly with her, getting zero sleep, irritable, crazy temper. **sigh**

Artemis, the elders...OH, you mean those Tony talked of in posts that seem ancient. The elders are the oldest and wisest of the werewolf nation. Among them are some of the most powerful ones that have the site to Torr. The group itself is old order, they enjoy keeping things the way they've been since forever ago. And they do a pretty good job at it.

The council...do you mean the council of elders? Run by Lucian? Well...they are like...parlaiment or congress. They make rules and laws, they keep things peaceful between races. They have a big job. And it the many centuries we've been alive they've been the ones to keep things orderly. If you've read the Twilight series they are much like the Volturi. But not as brutal. Lucian I guess would be Aro...he might dislike me for saying so though.

-Z.