To Die or Not to Die

I was officially declared a zombie by my school...so that was relatively interesting. I went in and the nurse checked me over and they were so excited about their first undead student. I can't say I'm not surprised by the school's reaction...I thought they'd either not notice or shun me because our town is so small that change is just like the apocolypse. The pack is super supportive and with them nothing has changed. Danny has finally calmed down and he doesn't care that I'm undead since we live forever anyway. But I'm worried...about having a child. I don't think it's possible...but i'm not sure so we'll skip that topic for the moment.

Being undead is...weird. I miss sleeping...There are times where I zone in and out of active consiousness...but I haven't slept since I "died" I don't HAVE to eat but it's almost just a reaction, I'm never hungry anymore. It's amazing the time you get when you dont' have to eat or sleep. I've worked on a story...my life story...oddly enought this blog is in it. *sigh*

I'm just not sure. This is all so confusing.
It's like being bitten all over again, adjusting to a new lifestyle and I just don't know.
If any of you have any advice...please let me know.
-Tony

Merry Christmas from the pack

This is a couple days late but we all wanted to say Merry Christmas to all you bloggerites out there. It's really great that you guys all follow this blog and it's incredibly awesome that you guys accept us as who we are.

Many people would be shocked to hear that werewolves or vampires or zombies celebrate christmas. I dion't know about vampires or zombies but most werewolves do celebrate it. Whether it's because that's what we did when we were human is probably a big part of it. But really, we are celebrating birth and life, no we don't believe in the same god or jesus as humans but when you are a werewolf celebrating birth and life is a big deal because we are honored to still be alive even if we aren't human.

That's the best way to put it I guess.
How was everyone's christmas?

-Tony

This Is Halloween

As hard as it is for some people to believe, werewolves actually do LOVE halloween, it's one of the ONLY holidays that isn't all about religion. It's about the mystery and magic of the classic All Hallow's Eve monsters! WEREWOLVES, VAMPIRES, AND ZOMBIES OH MY. Witches are popular, quite, actually. Warlocks too. At school today my human friend dressed up like the green teletubbie. Jeeze those things are freaking creepy.

I've noticed that on halloween it's all about dressing up like something that's super slutty and that bothers the crap outta me. Go stand of the corner if you wanna dress up like a freaking skank. Halloween's about having fun and I don't mean in the BED.

Anywho...plans for halloween anyone?

Is Seeing Truly Believing?

Hey there. Well I was on a forum again tonight and while talking to this guy he told me he didn't believe in werewolves, but didn't necessarily not believe in them. He said seeing is believing and he'd yet to see one. So what I ask: Is seeing REALLY believing?! I would say no. If someone saw me they'd probably spaz and call a priest or something.

But people see Zombies, they see that they are still their children and they still call them spawn of satan.

So what is your opinion? Is seeing really believing?

The Curious Case of the Hidden Mask

Hey everyone. I thought I'd post now since tonight is the O'Glorious full moon. The first - might I add - of the fall!!!! It's going to be wonderful, the last full moon was all cloudy and though it was lovely it was one of those cliche full moons. So I was on this one forum, I do like forums especially for books, and I was PMing this one girl, she was very kind and asking me intersting questions about my race. She told me that my vocabulary was rather extensive and I sound like I'm in college. I've noticed I do this when i talk to people I'm not very familiar with, it's a sort of shielf for me I guess. I told her that I live with a 500 year old wolf, and his vocabulary must've rubbed off on me or something.

So the reason I went into this story, and no it wasn't just to talk (or type, rather) it was to make a jump into the meaning of this post and it's to talk about...Masks. Everyone wears a mask,whether we know it or not, it's interesting to think about it. You might not notice it, but you act differently at school than you do at home, or around friends. It's all about masking part of yourself to please those around you. I do, you do it, we all do it.

But those of the unknown world (vamps, werewolves, zombies, etc) do it more. (lily this is for you) Zombies do it in attempt to please narrow minded asshole teachers or community members. Trying to show them that zombies (differently biotic) are as normal as any living human. I say that's not true. DB's, Zombies, Living impaired (WHATEVER!!!) are unique and amazing and should be damn proud of that. All the hidden races should be! We're beautiful, unique, and special. We've bent the laws of science, we are the greatest minority, yet we hide ourselves in fear of what stupid narrow minded humans will think.

I know this was a rather long message, but it needed to get out AND it'd been a while since I've posted.

Let's hear your thoughts and such. Any questions, ask!

**Tony**

I am Alphess hear me Howl!

Hey everyone. We got back early this morning from the midsummer full moon ceremony and of course the alpha ceremony. I am officially alpha! The ceremonies were beautiful, since it was a regional meeting there were tons more spectral wolves. it was so cool!

We have a new member of our pack now. His name is Carter. He's actually kinda uptight right now because he's new. He is 21ish. He just like all new wolves, hates what he is. Figures. So Danny and I are trying to get him to chill.

LILY-Hey! Remember Apollo from my last post? Well he finds you and all the other zombies extremely fascinating, actually he used the word awesome but quickly revised it because war wolves are supposed to talk with the up most dignity. I let him look at your blog and he thinks you guys are amazing (erm...fascinating) He also thinks it's really cool that you guys trust us lycans enough, and that we trust you. You see war wolves aren't supposed to trust anyone except the alphas or alpha pairs of certain packs. (Alpha pair is a pair of werewolves that belong together and run the pack together.)

Any questions?!

``Tony``

HEY! There, happy kinda almost JULY 4th!

Hey everyone, just wanted to wish you all a very amazing and happy July fourth. Werewolves celebrate the day of independence just like everyone else, lots of fireworks and a fabulous run through the woods at midnight...okay well maybe not how all humans celebrate the fourth but you get what you get. I hope all of you check out my fairy friend's site. This is week she is going by Myra (I don't even know) She's a little crazy but then again aren't we all? I've been reading some werewolf books lately and they are actually REALLY Good. like Kitty and the Silver bullet by Carrie Vaughn and New moon by Rebecca York. I went to the library and found them...huh. REMEMBER the 7th is A FULL MOON!!! WOOHOO. Anywhooooo.

What do you guys do for the fourth? LILY, How do you guys at celebrate the fourth? LOTS OF FIREWORKS!!! Woo hoo. Have a fabulous and safe fourth of July all my virtual pack members! No drinking and driving...buckle up for safety...don't run with scissors...don't walk and chew gum...don't talk to strangers...don't tell a werewolf they smell like dog...don't ask a vampire for a bandaid...don't tell a fairy their wing's on fire...don't tell a guy he looks like a fruitcake...don't play with matches...don't cross the street...um....OH YEAH! COME TO THE DARKSIDE WE HAVE COOKIES! Lol.

``Tony & Danny``
PS. THIS IS OUR 100th POST. 0.0

When the going get's tough

Okay. I decided to take a step back from the blah blah of the everyday and focus on something a little bit more...deep. As you can see from the title "When the Going get's tough." it's going to be about a harder part of life.

When humans have an issue or problem they generally find someone to talk to about it. To sit down and pour out their feelings, and have the other person give advice.
What if suddenly there was no one? No one to talk to? Or give advice? Or hold you while you cry? What IF no one could share your pain or help you through it. I'll tell you from personal experience that it sucks. Werewolves and Vampires the secret races, experience that just about everyday.

I remember when I first changed and went back home, my parent's were so mad because I'd been gone for a whole day. They yelled and screamed and when they asked for an explanation, i couldn't tell them. I couldn't tell them how terrified I was, I couldn't tell them how much pain i'd been in, how much it scared me, or how I wanted to die. They couldn't know that. So i took blow after blow, of their yelling and dealt with it.

One of my good friends, Eric, is a vampire. He told me that when he was bitten and made the change into a vamp, he had to leave his wife and children. Did he want to? No. Did he have to? Yes. He loved his wife and kids more than anything in the world and when his wife demanded to know why he was leaving he couldn't tell her it was because he'd changed into a vampire and that after he learned to control his blood lust he'd come back. If he did that she'd leave him and hate him. For her safety and sanity he left, telling her he didn't love her. It's been a hundred years since then, he saw his daughter Lena once riding in a car, she'd grown older and he hadn't.

The children of the dark (vampires, lycans, zombies) lose everything when they defy the laws of science. Homes, friends, family, everything. Don't take for granted all that you have. Because one day you'll be wondering where it went.

``Werewolf Moon``