Summerrrrr

Oh, I am so very glad it's summer. No more school or nosy teachers. I'm done and so through with it. *sigh* there is some good news though: I was emailed yesterday by three werewolves living in Amarillo Texas. They've been reading the blog for quite sometime and wanted to make the journey up here to join the pack. They were all bitten werewolves from all over Texas and they ended up together, they're all 17, really nice, all guys. They should be arriving in the next couple of days. I'm very very excited and so is the rest of the pack.

How is everything in the outside world?
Tony.

A Burden

Hey everyone. Sorry I've been so lazy on posting, I have more time now but I never get the chance to post. Really...it's been hectic here and I've been so busy, they all expect me to know what I'm doing.

Not the pack, of course, they see that I'm dealing with a lot and they just ask me to do my best. But everyone else, the living, expect me to be some sort of role model for the undead world. I'm the only Zombie in my area...so far anyway. They want more to come. They keep pushing me into the spot light like I'm a celebrity and I hate it. My life has always been a secret and now I'm living two lives.

I'm thinking of dropping out of school, I can't take it anymore.
I'm also seriously thinking about moving the pack, somewhere quieter, where the younger (and still living) ones can continue school, and we can grow. I didn't realize that death would be so hard, I didn't realize what it would bring on me and my pack.

If you have any suggestions where to move to, they'd be greatly appreciated.
~Tony

Flesh Eating Monster

Before...before I died I was used to being hidden. A shadow amongst shadows with secrets I would die to protect. No one really knew of who I was or rather...what I was. And now, after death has forced me to life again, people KNOW. They know I'm a zombie, I'm undead, I'm a corpsicle, whatever. That much is blatantly obvious. But I'm not used to people knowing. It frightens me.

I saw my sisters boyfriend only yesterday, he screamed when he saw me. Muttering that it was impossible. Only I heard. Outside of the pack no one believes he is the one who murdered me. But he was there. I know it.

Even as the undead the laws of mortals still bind us. Though they don't protect us. Danny wishes to take his life. An eye for an eye, I suppose you could say. But I would rather not, why bring us into the spotlight? Why put us up for suspicion.

Though I don't wish to kill him, I want him to realize that there is no getting rid of me. Torr wants me here and I am. I have my pack to take care of. I want him to feel what I felt, not pain, not the agony I felt, but the horrible things that went on in my mind as I lay in the stages between life and undeath.

Artemis...? How are things with Apollo?

Let me know.
-Tony

Oh My My My

Well, hellooooo. It's been quite a while...about a month actually, since I've written. How horrible since I've got all this time on my hands. Goodnessssss. Anyway. Life...(hehe sorry couldn't stop myself.) Un-dead life is pretty good. Things with Danny are great, Lucian Axel came to visit, and I told my parents about my death. They were freaked...obviously. But I must say that they handle weird quite well.

When my sister told her boyfriend about me and my death....he became a little more frightened of me. GOOD.. He should be scared.

When Lucian came to visit he told me that I'm a miracle of the greatest rank in the realm of werewolves (so the council says) and Torr has been visiting me in my sleepless dreams. It's incredible. Who knew death would bring you closer to a god?

I went to Prom with Danny. It was amazinnnggg. My dress was beautiful and Danny was striking in his black tux. It was extremely funn. Hope all is well in the mortal realm??

-Tony (werewolf, alphess, and cheater of the hands of death.)

To Die or Not to Die

I was officially declared a zombie by my school...so that was relatively interesting. I went in and the nurse checked me over and they were so excited about their first undead student. I can't say I'm not surprised by the school's reaction...I thought they'd either not notice or shun me because our town is so small that change is just like the apocolypse. The pack is super supportive and with them nothing has changed. Danny has finally calmed down and he doesn't care that I'm undead since we live forever anyway. But I'm worried...about having a child. I don't think it's possible...but i'm not sure so we'll skip that topic for the moment.

Being undead is...weird. I miss sleeping...There are times where I zone in and out of active consiousness...but I haven't slept since I "died" I don't HAVE to eat but it's almost just a reaction, I'm never hungry anymore. It's amazing the time you get when you dont' have to eat or sleep. I've worked on a story...my life story...oddly enought this blog is in it. *sigh*

I'm just not sure. This is all so confusing.
It's like being bitten all over again, adjusting to a new lifestyle and I just don't know.
If any of you have any advice...please let me know.
-Tony

Death has not been cruel

Hey Everyone. Tony here. And I KNOW you guys have been freaking out about what happened. It's okay because I'm fine. Being...undead isn't so bad. I was already a werewolf might as well make me a weird werewolf (who knew that was possible?!) I'm still the same me...just without a heartbeat. It's amazing. I don't sleep now...which is really weird. I just kinda zone in and out, it's amazing all the things you miss when you're asleep!

I really appreciate you guys supporting me through all this. Z has been awesome keeping you updated, honestly I don't know how they've put up with me. You guys rock.

Being so close...to not returning...it's scary. It makes me realize that though my life has been short, I regret nothing. Everything is perfect. I have the coolest friends and my pack is my world. There's no need to worry about me anymore. I'm back and better than ever. I've really missed being able to post and talk to you guys. Danny is still a little over protective but I guess i can't really blame him.

How've you all been? Missed you tons!
-Tony.

Many many things

Hello again bloggerites. I apologize for my poor posting skills. It's a wonder that Tony still allows me to post. Speaking of Tony she's doing wonderful, almost perfectly back to health. She's walking...eating, talking, she's up for the same amount of time as everyone else. But...there's something about her that has scared us to the depths of our souls. She has no heart beat. NONE. It is absolutely silent. With no heartbeat there is no bloodflow so her skin is never warm and not really cold...it's room temperature. She can still change, which was amazing. She changed for the first time two weeks ago. It was amazing, seeing her in wolf form again. But...the heartbeat...there isn't one. She cut herself on a knife and the wound healed as fast as it would've before...but we think...we think Tony is actually a Zombie. The way we've heard descriptions of people coming back to life is precisely what tony went through. Apollo thinks she came through it faster because she is still a werewolf. It's amazing. I read both of the Generation Dead series by Daniel Waters. Tony's pretty much the same as before, no heart beat of course, and there's something in her eyes. They went from gray blue to this pale icy blue. We think she's the first zombie werewolf. We need advice. What do you guys think?
--Z